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Paranoia gets
the best of me;
I remember the
way that you have helped me to see.
I'll never be ungrateful to you.
It's easy to get lost
within the worth of our truth.
For all the times that I've
wanted so much to die,
you've helped me
figure out my own mind.
The joy that surrounds me
when I'm around you, all
comes down to the things you do.
(Take me away...)
CHORUS:
Take me away to
another place where we can
live our lives for ourselves.
A place where no one judges
us. We exist as we are and
know no other realms.
All that we want is to be loved
just as we are, no conditions.
So take me away to
another place where we can
live our lives for ourselves.
We're the misunderstood ones.
People think they know better
than us what we should be.
It's all so ridiculous,
how they wound us with
their alleged sensibilities.
I'm a river so let me cut
my own path within the
mountains and the hills.
I know they want the best for us.
Until we stand up,
they will never know our wills.
(Take me away...)
CHORUS
Ooooh. Ooooh.
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Rules [Remastered]
03:26
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I saw it on the TV.
Saw it on my momma's face
Reflected in my lonely sister's eyes.
I've got the gist. I think I've missed
a signpost along the way.
I try to act like I fit in,
like there's nothing I want to say.
CHORUS:
Bury this secret inside of me,
so deep that no one can ever know my truth.
Maybe someday I will be complete.
Have to survive these rules.
Have to survive these rules.
Having conversations,
navigating blindly through this maze.
I never seem to make any sense.
Why do they hit me? (Why do they hurt me?)
Why do they call me names?
I haven't done a thing to them? Hey!
CHORUS:
Bury this secret inside of me,
so deep that no one can ever know my truth.
Maybe someday I will be complete.
Have to survive these rules.
BRIDGE:
Will I ever find any type of peace? (I don't know)
I can't find a place in this world (where I belong)
I misremember the things I've said;
have to wonder where it all went wrong.
CHORUS:
Bury this secret inside of me,
so deep that no one can ever know my truth.
Maybe someday I will be complete.
I have to survive these rules.
Bury this secret inside of me.
How the hell can I get back my life?
I will never, ever, ever be complete.
Don't think I will survive these rules.
I won't survive these rules.
I never seem to make any sense.
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3. |
Voices [Remastered]
04:14
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CHORUS:
It's like the pungent smell of thunder.
It's like the salty taste of blood.
It's like the screams that go unanswered
or the voices in my head.
I didn't want to be here.
I didn't want to be your toy.
You never thought of me for a moment.
You only thought of your own joy.
The smell of your perfume
makes me want to vomit.
Your caress feel like snakes down my spine.
How the hell could I have been so naive?
Now I'm trapped at your home wasting time.
You took the only thing you wanted.
All I need is to find a way to be left alone.
You grab your keys and say "Stop whining."
Despite my better judgment,
you managed to get me back home.
CHORUS
We embrace. I see your face hover over me.
I touch you in the way you want to be.
There's this cosmic sense of twinning.
"Am I losing? Am I winning?"
I take a look at your sweet face
and stammer out, (And I say)
"This is just something that I
cannot do tonight.
I thought that I was over my prior love."
What's unsaid is what remains.
I can't begin to even explain that
I am more like you are than you could
possibly know.
CHORUS
It's like the pungent smell of thunder.
It's like the salty taste of blood.
It's like the screams that go unanswered.
Hey, hey, hey, hey!
Why are you doing this to me?
Why are you doing this to me?
It's like the voices in my head.
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CHORUS:
Walk through the door.
You know that this is what you want.
Walk through the portal, now.
Although you're scared
and the demons haunt you.
You know this is all you've ever wanted.
This is not a dream.
This is your honest self speaking,
even if you don't want to hear it.
Your life is better now.
You don't hate your own reflection.
You know love and sisterhood
in this place.
You know this is all you've ever wanted.
CHORUS:
Walk through the door.
You know this is the end result of it all.
Walk through the portal, now.
People care and demons
will not taunt you as they did before.
You know this is all you've ever wanted.
Life will never be easy, child.
Life will never be easy, child.
Live it by your own terms.
They'll never understand your kind.
Be the best and they'll feel your words.
Just be in the moment.
Focus on you and let the
things that you deserve
find their way.
CHORUS:
Walk through the door.
You know that this is what you want.
Walk through the portal, now.
Although you're scared
and the demons haunt you.
You know this is all you've ever wanted
so walk through the door.
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Passing Go [Remastered]
05:13
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I stare at the screen.
Realize you're never
coming back to me.
You're gone. This time for good.
Just a self-centered little bastard
with no stomach for the truth.
I never wanted for this
to be the end.
Just trying to live my life,
not trying to play pretend.
Throw insults at me
'til the pain invades.
You know I love you but I don't
have time for your charades.
Chorus 1:
I have to go back to the start.
It's the only way
to keep myself from
falling apart.
Lay in bed each night and weep.
Wonder what I did wrong.
Maybe I won't wake up
in the morning from this sleep.
Such a simple thing for everyone.
They know from where they begin
how things are done.
I feel so awkward in this skin.
The taste, it hits my tongue.
It's sweet and dry within.
Watch as the magic world unfolds.
I'm like a newborn babe.
Everything glows in gold.
Your absence tears a hole in me.
I won't forget you, but
I'm glad that I'm finally free.
Chorus 2:
I had to go back to the start.
It was the only way
to keep myself from
falling apart.
Lay in bed each night and dream.
I did nothing wrong.
I wake up in the morning
next to my apathy.
Bridge:
It's as clear as a summer's day.
I finally understand the why of who I am.
This battlefield that is my heart and soul
retains memories of wars that
took place before.
Both Chorus
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Spiral [Remastered]
07:32
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(Around and around and...)
I feel magic in my skin.
This feeling melts me from within.
My blood rushes inside my veins.
I know my life is soon to change.
Dreams of falling, of being chased,
means that I will be erased,
replicated every seven years.
I accept oblivion with no fear.
CHORUS:
This is not the end.
This is only the beginning.
Losing all I am,
gaining everything.
Taste the blood.
Smell the pain.
What's dead will be
ressurected again.
Floating through this
eternal coil.
What makes me true
will never spoil.
Metamorphosis
will never stop.
I sink into
the warmth and start
spinning around and around and around...
God is in immortal peril
as nature's storms run rampant.
The Goddess wants let out of this well
to give the sun its replacement.
Releases painful sunlight
and bathes my body in the blood,
only for me to be reborn
emanating from the mud.
CHORUS
In love with a ghost that no longer exists.
In this plane of being, memories persist
Abandon all hope of a "normal" life,
of being a husband to a wife.
Delete yourself. Write your own script
as suddenly the world has flipped.
Now you're in the other field.
Your flesh slowly begins to yield.
CHORUS
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Venom [Remastered]
05:45
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You played a little game with me.
Only thought of yourself when you
claimed to set me free.
I've felt this guilt
within my heart for so long.
Now I know I'm right
and that you were wrong.
CHORUS:
You showed me...
You confused me...
Your touch was just like venom.
You told me
they'd never believe me.
This pain has lasted forever.
I told you
I didn't want you.
You didn't hear me, did you?
You told me
that I was crazy.
Your touch was just like...
You took me places that I
never wanted to go.
Showed me things I wasn't
ever meant to know.
Destroyed my sense of security.
Now there's so much hurt inside
that no one else can see.
CHORUS
I never knew anybody else...
I never hated anyone more...
CHORUS
(Now I know what has been done.
You have blocked out all the sun.
Now I sit and collect myself.
Guess I know that I need help.)
Your touch was just like...
Oh-oo-oh-oo-oh...
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Lost [Remastered]
04:33
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At some other time in my life
I might have seen it coming.
You played with my mind
and made me feel like
I didn't know what I was doing.
When the winter chill came down
I knew it all was lost.
I gave you my heart and soul to keep;
didn't care about the cost.
CHORUS 1:
I was so lost without you.
I had no more trust to give away.
Never thought you would betray me
or think that I could
hurt you that way.
It's taken so long to work out
the hell that you've put me through.
I'm so much healthier, existing
so much better than
I knew could be true.
When the winter chill comes down,
I don't feel nearly as lost.
Gave my heart and soul to a girl
who doesn't take for granted the cost.
CHORUS 2:
I'm no longer lost without you.
I found the trust to give away.
I know she'll never betray me
or think that I could
hurt her that way.
So, my pains are yours to keep;
I've given all of mine away.
Rarely spare a thought for you now
'coz I always look the other way.
CHORUS 2
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Before I met you
I thought I knew what love was.
You swept me off my feet and I
got lost in your eyes.
The moon danced just for me
as I healed from the past.
While all isn't perfect with me,
I hope this moment lasts.
But love...
What about love...
So scared to trust someone again
until you smiled at me...
CHORUS:
You were such a surprise to me,
like a precious gift
before these eyes.
I've felt a new day dawning.
It's changed my life.
I know that you love me
and I'll do the best I can
to love you and be the best
me that I am.
After so much loss,
you've given me back my life.
Didn't just want to have
a husband to be someone's wife.
All that I need is to be loved;
you've gave me more than I knew
was possible. You gently pushed me
so that I could be true.
In time...
Maybe in time...
I'll learn to trust others again
and heal from the pain...
CHORUS 2x
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Repeat [Remastered]
03:59
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CHORUS:
You'll never find the answers you seek,
if you keep on putting life on repeat.
There's danger in complacency,
and if you can't break out
you'll never be free.
You'll never find the answers you seek,
if you keep on putting life on repeat.
Reverse the way you think and see,
and you'll be able to find out
just who you could be.
You say to you want
to create change,
yet everything
just stays the same.
I know you're doing
what you can do.
But if the folks find out
they'll just have to lose.
There is so much
uncertainty
and I know how it feels
when you're in-between.
You simply have to
change the rules.
Don't let them win
no matter what you do.
CHORUS
It's not important to be
their visions of you.
Learn who you are
and what you can do.
We all have things
to contribute,
and this world's too small
to deny the truth.
Who do you see
when you face yourself?
Do you find it hard to
put the bad on the shelf?
You have to be
honest with you.
Harm none. Live life
to please only you.
CHORUS
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Reborn [Remastered]
04:34
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A whirling dervish of activity
inside my head made me spin.
I took a chance and walked away.
Never really looked at where I began.
Wondered where I was going and what
could I be now that I had finally arrived.
Every step was in front of me.
It's a miracle that I survived.
And now I'm...
CHORUS:
Reborn from the ashes of my pain. (Oooh)
The world will never be that way again. (Oooh)
I don't know where I'll be next
following the path I follow.
I'm reborn and living all the same.
Suffering and pain never passed me by.
I was broken-hearted.
Forever asking the question why.
It was as if seas were parted.
Realize that I'm worth all the toys.
Now I'm feeling comforted.
If I just ignore all of the noise,
my world will become what I wanted.
CHORUS (2x)
Reborn (7x)
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I walk towards the water,
feel the wind caress my face.
Smell the salt of the ocean.
I can almost taste it.
It seems like so long ago
when my feet were placed right here.
I'm surprised to
find myself back again.
Struggle with the tears.
CHORUS:
It's a singular notion
to make some sense out of existence.
All I needed was to be freed
from all the petty questions.
Time can heal most of your wounds.
Determination does the rest.
Inner peace has been a long time coming
but it's finally here at last.
CHORUS
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Adrift [Remastered]
04:50
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I'm thankful
the nightmare is over.
Brought back to status quo
I'm feel-ing
so uncourageous.
Don't have a clue where to go.
I'm so lost
it's been a thousand years
since I've had a compass
to work from.
Need repair.
I'm
adrift in the ocean.
Land is nowhere to be found.
(interlude)
The sun
rises
heavy in the sky.
I might be okay
this time.
Is it the moment to
rip off my bodice?
Set sail to the nearest
galapagos that I can find.
I'm so lost
it's been a thousand years
since I've had a compass
to work from.
Need repair.
I'm
adrift in the ocean.
Land is nowhere to be found.
I find land
and check out my place here...
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When I try you on the phone,
you're never there.
Several hours later, feel like
you don't care.
Why the hell do I bother?
Why am I even here?
Do you need me anymore?
Said you would be there for me,
you've disappeared.
Instead of filling me with hope,
I feel despair.
All I get is a text.
No comfort there.
Am I losing my sanity?
CHORUS:
You're a stranger to me now.
I know we've lost the thread somehow.
Empty promises to change
won't help us now.
We'll fall apart like this.
If you choose to stay,
then let me know
by your actions,
not your words that melt like snow.
If we never adapt, we will never grow.
Is this real or artifice?
I thought this was a partnership,
that we were there.
There is only tumbleweeds
trying to see you.
I see the forest and the trees,
but there's not a plume
of compassion anymore.
You like to fuck the evening through,
I cannot fault.
But your lack of interest lies
in the missing thoughts of
you and me together.
We just fought and fought
until it's all a complex chore.
CHORUS
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When I felt your arms around me,
a chill went down my spine.
I hoped so much you wouldn't stay here with me.
Leave the past far behind.
Yet you manipulate and complicate
every facet of my life.
I cannot comprehend these feelings you send
that glimmer like a sharpened knife.
Chorus:
Don't you understand these words?
The harsh look from these eyes?
You thought you knew
just what to do.
Face reality; you're wrong.
When I heard your words surround me,
I wanted to believe you.
You twist my words and reasons for
your own peace of mind.
You only hear what you want to
You must be as dense as a cold brick wall.
I just can't get away from you.
Chorus:
Can't you comprehend these words?
The gaze I give you from these eyes?
I just want to stay away from you.
Can't you see that you are wrong?
There is a place I know so well,
a darkened corner no one knows.
Light my incense and crawl into bed.
Most days that's how it goes.
I can't sleep. I can't eat.
You are stuck inside my mind.
The phone rings. My brain sings.
Why can't I just be blind?
Chorus:
Can't you comprehend these words?
The gaze I give you from these eyes?
I just want to stay away from you.
Can't you see that you are wrong?
Don't you understand these words?
The harsh look from these eyes?
You thought you knew
just what to do.
Face reality; you're wrong.
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I wanted to protect you
from the hell that life can serve.
I gave you my trust.
I gave it my all.
Was this what I deserved?
Thought you loved who I was inside,
not to be taken for a freak.
Now I'm walking on eggshells
for fear of the pain
of not being believed.
CHORUS:
What hope have I
in things that remain unseen?
I cannot pretend
that I am a machine.
Blithely looking where to go
so I can remain me.
Walk a path that most won't go
that leads to the heart of me.
I can't sustain your lifeforce
that's pounding against me.
It's all too much for me to bear,
this permanent disease.
You shrug me off, tell me to leave
as if I was one of your whores.
I grab my shit and my memories
as I walk out of your door.
CHORUS
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Music from the mind of Cadence Benoit. I create music in various styles & genres because I get bored easily. My primary
focus is on electronic music. Although my older music is more pop, my newer music is leaning more in different directions.
Previously known as equals the RAVEN, Katie Turner, DJ Jynx, Starbelle & DJ K8T, I also write prose as Caitlyn Benoit.
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